I'm still angry...

Have just finished lovely chat. I would really like to know why people can't have these kinds of conversations with me to my face. "You should talk to her." "You should do this." "Have you talked to her?" No, No, and No. I don't want to talk to her and calling me childish makes me think you are a deranged social leper who thinks that she actually likes me. Snapping at people is unacceptable. Snapping at people after being verbally reprimanded is also unacceptable. Completely and utterly unacceptable. It is behavior that was condoned by the oh so helpful advisory party and that makes me want to not take her adivce. It is also unacceptable to talk shit about people behind their back. but since i cannot say that with enthusiasm i will say it thusly. I am 20 years old. I am an Engineering Major. A Mechanical Engineering Major. If i was immature and childish i would have washed out over two years ago. If i was a social retard who didn't know how to handle people and wasn't aleast semi resolved, i would probably not be here to talk to you. I may not be brave enough to be mean (others say honest but i feel the honesty here is a bit cruel) but that is because unlike others, i am a nice person. I don't want to hurt people. i don't find it fun or enjoyable. I find it childish. So no, i am not going to forgive her and at this point i don't even want to think about her without puking. All i want is to walk away from this and stop getting advised to do things that make me into a childish brat. I don't want to talk to her. And i won't talk to her about this for a very long time because honestly, she has probably forgotten that she was rude, offensive and completely ruined my week. So i am not holding her hand and playing best friends. I will be polite, civil and even attempt at charming for the sake of those around us. I am not doing it for her. I am doing it for me. I don't want a coerced apology, especially from a person i know will go running to others first chance she gets, get validated and told that i am a bratty temper tantrum throwing brat. I am not. I am hurt. I am offended. I am rightiously pissed off and if she knew every gory detail of why i don't want to talk, then she wouldn't be advicing me to talk to her either. But since i am a good friend, i am not dragging her into this. I don't see a point in talking since what is left unsaid far outweighs anything that can ever be spoken aloud. So back off advice givers who are trying to be impartial but are failing miserably because they are either too optimistic or too selfish to realize that i was hurt. And i don't want to force an apology when i know it will mean jack fuckin' shit.

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