So I lied. shoot me.

So Yeah. I said i would update on Saturday. I lied. But who doesn't these days. Yes that was a dig. Yes it was directed towards certain people and yes i am sorry for it but i am really pissed off. Fuck you. Whooops bad word. Oh well no editng today because if i do this will sound like a political speech where i don't want to exclude or insult any group. Too bad i hate you all (sept Ezi.... and others who will remain nameless... you know who you are)  The rest of you? You anger me

For the people just joining us. I'm not usually this angry, bitter, disturbing, cussy, etc on the adj but you caught me on a bad day. I have my cram session tomorrow, book talk on wed plus a rube conference, art due on thurs and maybe another rube conference, and Friday is my Rube Goldberg project. So yeah... Stress and my soap opera friends are kinda... erm... Pissing me off. There is something good coming from this. I am creative and you know what that means. More live journal cuts... just not now because they will suck... badly. Also for the just joinings. Feel free to go back and read the previous entries. They will give a slightly less angry me. Also there is this nifty little thing called "comments" which are neat. They inspire... happy non homocidal feelings.

Moving on. Last week. Wow that was a long time ago. Monday was kinda bad... You know what lunch is now declared evil because everyone is making assumptions and that really pisses me off when people assume something esp about me. Also the curse of last to know struck again. Pissy luck that is. Tuesday we had our first Cram session fro the AP exams. Wow that was rough. 5 pages of notes. wednesday i don't really recall what happened. I'm sure something did but i just don't rmemeber what. Thursday i met with ames and jer and george to do our Rube Goldburg project. the one where you have to make a big complex multistep machine to do one task thats due friday.Saturday i saw Sarhara. KICK ASS MOVIE it was so funny and my favorite character didn't die. what more can i ask for. Not to mention the slashability of the freaken movie which just made it even funnier. (for slash definition look like 15 entries back). Then i came home and we (Lenell, Tidah, Chelsea and I) got togther to do our video paradoy project. That was exciting. Then on Saturday i went to the Dinosaur Museum and saw the new "imax" which was good but got kinda boring after you watched the 400th guy jump from the plane. Then i went home and changed into a skirt (BIG DEAL) and went to dinner and a movie (Sin City again) with Lenell. Lenell and i have to whole(almost) movie figured out. You want our theory? ask. Sunday. Dull. Did nothing. It was nice and relaxing and i can't wait until friday at 2:30. Then today... this deserves a new paragraph.

Today was a pain. I wake up and go into instant denile (not monday noooooo). I get up and make it to school. Don't really remember anything before school although i dimmly remember talking to Felina... Not sure if i did though. I went to history and i so know our stuff for our presentations tomorrow. Then i went to Jewelry and that was nice actually. Nice and calm. Then i went to french and stuff and got my homework done and stuff. Then i went to Lunch and my day wen tfrom being Dull to being... um a dull pain like the kind that keeps you up at night and has you worried that you've contracted some horrible disease. Well the last one to find out curse stuck again. Felina and  Dusty are now dating. I sensed a storm brewing and felt really angry at everyone. Why? Because i felt like everyone (well not really) was mad at me because they all thought that i was on Ames' side durring this whole thing and now were not treating me like a friend. *edited for really pissed off fucking content, you want it ask for it*. Wow this journal enrty is bouncing between witty and erm... really ranty and stuff i wish i could say face to face.Moving on. Math was dull as hell and i have a headache that's been going on for about a week now. Sucky... Then i went to physics where we watched a movie with nothing to do with physics. It was exciting but  have no answer for question 7. Then i went to english really weird and we watched another movie in that class but it had symbols in it. Then i came home and read The day of the Bomb for an hour and a half before i had to go across the street and learn about more dogsittting and talk about my life. Then i came home nd ranted for an hour and a half to my parents about the stupid group dynamic and how i wanted to write a fuckin' soap about it called "T.O.P." (the original posse) and sell it to like WB and get millions. I'm starting the script soon i think. It will be exciting. I may even post this.Then after that i called my best friend who love more then anyone right now because... well... she doesn't piss me off ever...

I just re-read this and i realized three things

1: My spelling gets worse when i'm pissed

2: I am really angry. I switched back and forth between witty and fucking angry like 400 times. BTW you call it mood swings i will beat your ass into a bloody pulp. I mean it. I don't due mood swings i do build ups that explode.

3: I have cussed in this entry more then any other. Sorry.

Now time for apologies. Sorry to whoever read this and wanted humor. i hope you smiled once. I'm sorry for terrify the just joinings i'll get happier i promise. Sorry to Felina and others who had rants either directly or not directly fired in their direction. But it's your fault. You pissed me off enough to break my "no personal hatreds online" rule that i tried to make today for myself. Sorry for blaming you. Sorry for cussing alot. Esp sorry to Aunt Laura if she's reading this. I'm not usually this angry. Insert other sorrys here. I have to go to bed.

Oh and on a lighter note. I will be posting stuff soon so yay. maybe even **gasp** fanfiction...... AHHHH. Also Friendly hostility update. Made me smile for the first time since well... i don't know how long now.

Lates

Nyssa

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