Feb. 4th, 2010

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We had another meeting with our Design V professor today. As per usual felt rather inadequate when we left, but I am starting to get used to feelings of failure. I don’t think that is a very good sign. It may indicate a lack of motivation or something. Others will say it means I lack personal pride but MEH, I am prideful enough. Too much pride is a sin and people are real bitches if they think you are being proud of anything, regardless of any struggle you had to overcome to get there.

So I just realized that one year ago I was so upset I could barely function. Thank god for JAMP and his amazing pie and all the support I got from people. Yay for real friends. It’s kind of interesting just looking back. I still get mad and angry and act a bit childish, but I would like to hope that if the situation were to repeat itself, I would behave differently, not get stomped on and yelled at and threatened and that I would have just smiled, thanked people for the food and left, graciously, because what would be the point in staying there? Kind of makes me wish I could go back in time a year and repeat that one night, just to either clarify my own recollection and see if my anger is justified or to just… handle the situation in a different way. I am fairly certain given the mental maturity involved in this incident that I would just have been called a whiny bitch or something equally… infuriating if I had walked away but I think it would have placed some things in perspective for me.

I got the Sweeny Todd game off of Bigfishgames. I played it already. I am a bit depressed about that since that means that the game was not all that technically difficult and things. There were a few moments where I fumbled however as some things just didn’t logically track for me. But I finished it. And sometimes it sang to me.

Weird.

+Nyssa

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